It’s hard for me to write under the best of conditions–I’m a pronounced procrastinator who always can rationalize away a reason to write. But now that I’m down with cancer, I have both the best opportunity to, as well as the best reason not to, write.
I have much to write about–anyone does, really. But in the short period of time since my diagnosis on November 30, 2009, with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL) and the Philadelphia Chromosome abnormality, I have accumulated many things in my mind that I would like to record for my own self-interest. For example, I would like to log down the emergency room scene when I was told about my disease, including the moaning drunk outside my pulled curtain (as cliche as it may sound), to capture what I remember and felt about that experience. I would also like to describe what it’s like to be stuck in a hospital bed in a room where everyone who enters has to wear a mask. It becomes rather surreal when I had multiple visitors sitting around me trying to communicate through their eyes. And of course I will want to try to explain how the treatment and various medications are affecting me physically and mentally. Yes, lots to discuss as long as I am unable to convince myself not to write.
But what I really want to acknowledge first and will discuss in my next post, what I want to make sure anyone who reads this understands, is that I very quickly have become truly thankful for my disease.
Kurt – I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my prayers!! I am dying to hear about how you have become thankful for your disease! You must have some secret! Sending you lots of prayers for physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health.
Thanks Katie K! I really appreciate the prayers. And yes, I have some secrets, and how. 🙂
Hi Kurt,
We are thinking of you and keeping you in our prayers for strength now, a full recovery, a bright future and lots of good luck.
We are keeping up to date on your progress from Kelli, but want you to know that we are keeping you close to our hearts and in our prayers each day.
Much love to you, Meggi and the kids.
xoxo
Erin & Dave
Hi Martin family! Thank you for the prayers and all of our love to your beautiful family as well. -kurt
Kurt,
You need to write – it’s what you do best and you’ll want to record just how you felt, observations, and thought processes.
You’ll beat this disease.
Odie
Thanks brother!
Hey Kurt,
So I’m web-surfing away and was so happy to find you on the FB… and then I find out you’re sicker than a dog. I am so sorry! It’s hard to believe a big ol’ healthy guy like you can be so sick! You and Megumi, and your kids are in my heart and prayers for recovery and a long(er) life together. Keep writing — you write so beautifully.
Love and hugs,
Christine
Christine,
It’s great to reconnect with my favorite Mitchell family regardless of the circumstances. Thanks for the prayers, love and hugs. They’re already are working!
Kurt,
Our prayers are with you, Meg and the kids. Keep writing – you will be surprised how the words will flow! And laugh at least a few times a day!
Melanie
Hi Melanie! It’s great to hear from you. One of my biggest regrets of this whole ordeal is that it forced me to miss your Christmas Party. 🙂 Thanks so much for the prayers. They’re working! Please tell your family and the gang I said hello.
-kurt
Hi Kurt,
At first I did not know that you were personally writing these messages; they sound as though a poet wrote them! What beautiful messages; they encouraged me… I keep thinking that one day I may say that I am thankful for my cancer, but I cannot honestly say that yet. Not completely, anyway. My prayers and thoughts are with you. I’d love to get together with you some day…
Hello Debbie,
Thank you so much for the encouraging messages and the informative books. There is so much for me to learn and you definitely have set me on a positive path to my recovery. And of course your courage and prayerful energy are the most inspiring to me and are a wonderful example for me to try to follow.
Thanks again for everything Debbie. I too am praying for you and your family and I’m looking forward to seeing you too.
Love kurt
Kurt:
I am reading all the wonderful responses of the many people you have touched in your life with tears flowing. All I can say is that I love you more than you can ever imagine. I would do anything for you and your family, so when your weak, lean on those that love you to find your strength. The music playing as I write is..”forever God is faithful, forever God is strong, His love endures forever.” God created you, so I am confident that he can heal you too!
I Love You,
Kam
Thanks Kam. Love you too!